I guess, first let me introduce myself. My name is Jeannie and I am an adult adoptee (37 years old with my own children) I was adopted as an infant. Let me let you all know why I am here......
I was filling out some paperwork to be a CASA volunteer today and I came across something there that read (I know you are all familiar with this
) Reactive Attachment Disorder.
So, being curious...I researched it. That's how I got here. The reason I am here is because as I was reading through literature I started to relate. REALLY relate...personally. Like I said, I was adopted as an infant, but not until right before my first birthday, like a week I think it was. I had been in the same foster home since shortly after birth, though I don't know any details. Just that my birth mother abandoned me in the hospital and I assume I went shortly thereafter into foster care and then was adopted by my now parents shortly before the age of one.
I have always had this fear of people leaving me and sort of what I have always referred to as a separation anxiety of sorts. I am also a very emotional person. Not clinical in any area. I went and had a full psychological testing done a few years back because I also felt like I suffered from ADD. I do. But I also know myself real well and just being honest about stuff, I know I feel very cheated in life so to speak in that I feel as if I didn't get enough physical attention as an infant perhaps or something. My adoptive parents, while they are wonderful people are not nurturing people either which I am sure compounded any issues.
I certainly am not writing this because I feel as if I can't function or anything that severe....just wondering if maybe this is what I have struggled with my entire life.
Being a Mommy now to three wonderful children. I have watched them from the time they were born. As they got close to their first birthday's I would always try and put myself in their shoes. I just can't imagine being taken from the only home I had ever known the only security I had ever known and had it NOT effect me in one way or another. I know what my kids were like at that age, very into Mommy, and I wonder how this has molded who I am today? I know my adoptive parents told me I had just started to walk when they were in the process of adopting me, and I reverted back to crawling, and no more talking either for quite awhile. I started sucking my thumb also, and was terrified of my Dad because he had such a deep voice and a beard. I love my Dad very much now, so that is kind of a funny story to me that I would ever feel that way.
Anyway, does this sound like I may have suffered (hate to use the word suffered) from some sort of Attachment Disorder? I didn't even know until this afternoon that such a thing existed.
Thanks for any input. I would appreciate it so much.
Jeannie
I was filling out some paperwork to be a CASA volunteer today and I came across something there that read (I know you are all familiar with this
) Reactive Attachment Disorder.So, being curious...I researched it. That's how I got here. The reason I am here is because as I was reading through literature I started to relate. REALLY relate...personally. Like I said, I was adopted as an infant, but not until right before my first birthday, like a week I think it was. I had been in the same foster home since shortly after birth, though I don't know any details. Just that my birth mother abandoned me in the hospital and I assume I went shortly thereafter into foster care and then was adopted by my now parents shortly before the age of one.
I have always had this fear of people leaving me and sort of what I have always referred to as a separation anxiety of sorts. I am also a very emotional person. Not clinical in any area. I went and had a full psychological testing done a few years back because I also felt like I suffered from ADD. I do. But I also know myself real well and just being honest about stuff, I know I feel very cheated in life so to speak in that I feel as if I didn't get enough physical attention as an infant perhaps or something. My adoptive parents, while they are wonderful people are not nurturing people either which I am sure compounded any issues.
I certainly am not writing this because I feel as if I can't function or anything that severe....just wondering if maybe this is what I have struggled with my entire life.
Being a Mommy now to three wonderful children. I have watched them from the time they were born. As they got close to their first birthday's I would always try and put myself in their shoes. I just can't imagine being taken from the only home I had ever known the only security I had ever known and had it NOT effect me in one way or another. I know what my kids were like at that age, very into Mommy, and I wonder how this has molded who I am today? I know my adoptive parents told me I had just started to walk when they were in the process of adopting me, and I reverted back to crawling, and no more talking either for quite awhile. I started sucking my thumb also, and was terrified of my Dad because he had such a deep voice and a beard. I love my Dad very much now, so that is kind of a funny story to me that I would ever feel that way.
Anyway, does this sound like I may have suffered (hate to use the word suffered) from some sort of Attachment Disorder? I didn't even know until this afternoon that such a thing existed.
Thanks for any input. I would appreciate it so much.
Jeannie
